Sunday, September 09, 2007

Mom



Mom called my physician sister yesterday to ask her if a heart attack would cause chest pain. Deb was at her side within minutes. Four of her seven children were with her within hours.

I will relieve my sister and sleep beside Mom in the ICU tomorrow night. Eighteen years ago Mother slept in my hospital room. I remember waking in the night and watching her lying on the makeshift bed against the wall. I remember the flood of gratitude. I remember her silver hair and her sweet face in the soft light. I was still her child. She was sixty-eight.

In the emergency room she assured everyone that she was ready to go - ready to see Dad again. She gave instructions that she not be resuscitated.

I'm not ready to say goodbye to her.

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27 comments:

Patrice said...

Oh Cathy, My heart and prayers are with you. I'm at a loss for words.
Take care, my friend.

Lynne said...

You, your Mom and your family are in my prayers tonight. I ache for you.

NatureWoman said...

Oh, no way can she go yet, Cathy. I am really feeling for you. {{{HUGS}}}

Cathy said...

Patrice -Thank you.


Lynne -Thank you.


Pam -

What are you doing up so early, sweetie? Thank you.

Mary said...

Cathy,

We had the same conversation with my Mom - it's a very important one... I think your Mom will be just fine. You are all in my prayers.

Big Hugs,
Mary

threecollie said...

Oh, Cathy, our thoughts and prayers to you and your mother. I hope she can weather this and get well to share many more special times with you and your family.

Ruth said...

I pray for strength and peace for each of you. I am glad you mother was able to express her wishes and let you know that she is ready for whatever happens. Who is ever ready to say goodbye to their mother?

Mary said...

I'm back. I wanted to tell you how much I love that photo of you and your Mom. It's happy and joyful!

Cathy said...

Dear Friends -

For all your thoughts and prayers - thank you .

We're headed for the hospital and the hugs and smiles of gathering friends and family . . . .

(Mary - I love that picture, too.)

Anvilcloud said...

Wishing you, your Mom, and your family all of the best.

cestoady said...
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cestoady said...

Such a joyous, tender and loving picture of you and your mom !! We are all with you as you watch over your mom who is so reassured by you at her side.

Laurie said...

Oh Cathy, my dear sweet lady, you are in my thoughts and my prayers. Please let me know if there is anything at all I can do for you.

Love,
Laurie

RuthieJ said...

Oh Cathy, I will keep your family in my prayers. That's such a sweet photo of you and your mom.

Sandy said...

Your family will be in my prayers, Cathy.

Laurie said...

I just stopped by to see how you are doing. Thinking of you...

barefoot gardener said...

We are never ready to say goodbye. I will be thinking of you.

Tim Burns said...

Cathy, my prayers are with you and your family.

KGMom said...

Oh Cathy--here are some good thoughts and soulful prayers coming your way.
Please let us know how she is--and how you are.

Pam said...

My very dear friend, I will keep you all in my thoughts... we are never ready.

Mary C said...

Cathy - I'm joining everyone else here to let you know you and your family are in my thoughts and prayers. Saying goodbye to our moms has got to be the hardest thing in the world to do.

Mary said...

Just stopping by for an update. I have high hopes for you, dear.

Larry said...

I'm so sorry for the great sadness you must feel.

Laurie said...

Like Mary, I just stopped by to see how you are. I also have high hopes, dear lady. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

Love,
Laurie

burning silo said...

As so many others have said, that's a wonderful photo of you and your mom. My thoughts are with you. I hope that all if well. Take care.

Lynne said...

Just checking in.

Laura said...

Thinking of you, Cathy and your mom.

Hope she is doing well.