Friday, October 27, 2006

I'm Just Feeling So 'Scroogey'

My husband is a complete stoic. I sat beside him in 1999 as he waited to be rolled into the OR for by-pass surgery. When I think about his composure, I'm still in awe and a bit envious of his ability to accept the 'is-ness' of his physical self. Maybe being a physician who has seen so much of the body's ability to heal - or perhaps, the inevitability, the naturalness of death, endows him with the serenity that I have yet to attain.

I, on the other hand, having had a physical concern - now allayed - am having an 'Ebeneezer Scrooge morning' after Marley's and the spirits' visitations. In the Albert Finney muscial, Scrooge throws open the window and learns that he's not missed Christmas Day and that it's not too late to do good, to make amends and to love. The tune going through my head this afternoon were the lyrics he sings, as he frolics through the town on his way to Tiny Tim and his nephew's home celebrating his epiphany:

"I will start anew.
I will make amends,
and I will make quite certain
that the story ends
on a note of hope
on a strong amen
and I'll thank the world
and remember when
I was able to begin again."

You know, being a little 'hyper', a titch neurotic, may have its up-side :0) How long this sense of 'Christmas epiphany' will last I don't know - but the 'concern' did light a fire under me to finish some projects, renew connections that I'd delayed for months. Maybe there's a nice medium between stoicsim and hysteria - well, why not?



Anonymous said...

I absolutely love that movie, thanks for reminding me of it. I am going to put it at the top of my netflix queue. Take good care.

Cuppa said...

Oh I also love that morning after feeling of happiness and glee following the dark night of the soul. It does makes one feel "as light as a feather, as giddy as a schoolboy"! I haven't yet felt like "I must stand on my head" though!

As Fezziwig said to young Scrooge at the Christmas party -
"When happiness show up always give it a comfortable seat."

So, give happiness a comfortable seat today. Wrap yourself in its warm blanket and enjoy a cup of tea and a nice long visit.

Anvilcloud said...

We watch one of the Scrooge flicks every year but always one of the regular, non-musical versions.

Cathy said...

Cuppa - that's lovely - Fezziwig's quote - I'd forgotten it. Yes, tomorrow will be the visit and the cup of tea:0)

Cathy said...

Anvil Cloud - I had trouble, intially with accepting Finney as Scrooge and singing yet! But really, the ghost of Christmas present is worth the renting of this movie. But, please! fast-forward through the decent-into-hell scene. What a complete disaster for a movie that we find otherwise entertaining. Oh, yes! The "Thank You Very Much" scene. I defy you not to smile.

Cathy said...

AC - That's "descent" not "decent" - into hell. Har :0D