Thursday, October 26, 2006
Wuss -Addendum - Made it :0)
You needn't read on - procedure is over - I'm home,happy and didn't embarrass myself.
OK. I'm a wuss. Hopefully by the time any of you, my few, but precious readers encounter this post - the above eye will have relinquished its nervous twitch.
So I'm scheduled for a very minor out-patient 'old lady' procedure early tomorrow morning and I'm having ' WAAAAAAH! I don't want to do this' anxiety.
Anesthesia is a good thing, but doggone it - it's hard to relinquish consciousness - even for a 10 minute procedure . I like looking around - I like being 'awake' to the world.
Yes, I fear death. But as I age, the fact of it becomes less terrifying - most of my friends agree that the blink from life to death isn't the greatest source of anxiety. We've all heard the troubling stories of lives prolonged beyond reason and we fear mostly the extended suffering that accompanies this process. Yes. That's it. I'm a wuss. I hate suffering.
But, I love looking around. I love beauty, mystery and most of all the connections with family and others that I've made over the years. We are so wonderful aren't we? That's what I'm trying to concentrate on tonight while I watch DVDs of Raymond, Frasier and A@E's Pride and Prejudice. Oh! Click on the water-cloud picture. See the lovely little feather? (Yes, I posted it before, but at the moment I'm inclined to indulge myself - it's one of my favorites:0)